awww <3 why anon?!

oh no sweetie I just fell asleep! I did get the message! Anytime you want to talk you can always message me :)

Do whatever makes you feel comfortable dear :) Lame or not. I’ve seen lots of people who have covered scars with tattoos or even gotten some beautiful scarifications done.

What are some of the reasons it’s hard to love yourself? I meant to ask that earlier and completely forgot

I can totally understand money being tight. With everything that’s been going on in my life a new mod is definitely what the doctor ordered but I just simply can’t afford them because I refuse to get cheap mods from cheap places. I’m so proud you’ve been clean for so long! What are some of the mods you have, if you don’t mind me asking?

The best family is sometimes the one we pick and not the one we’re born with. 

Whenever you’re ready to show me I would love to see them :)

I’ve never cut but that doesn’t mean the desire  hasn’t been there. It doesn’t mean I haven’t pressed into my skin with something sharp. What I have done instead of drawing blood is get modifications, tattoos and piercings. I withhold. I bottle up those feelings…and let me tell you that’s not good either…but I like the fact that I have beautiful images on my skin. Have you thought about  an alternative like that? I know not everyone can hold out like that but it’s an idea. 

I can relate to depending on myself only. 90% of the people I have ever met or trusted have usually reminded me why I’m fucked up in the first place by doing something that sends me over the edge (breaking trust, being super shitty, etc). 

I’m glad you’re with people now who inspire you to do your work again. I’m sure the photos are lovely. I’d love to see some one day. I love photography. Both taking and being in the photo. The fact that I’ve never taken a bad driver’s license picture can attest to that. lol

I’m glad that you’re open to the idea that if you two don’t make it that it’s not the end of the world. 

I once thought my high school sweetie was my soulmate and…it was a bad relationship. But I grew from it. And it took a long time for me to be okay with someone in my life again. 

Take this time to be selfish. Do stuff you’ve always wanted to do. Travel. Save up money and go away to places. Learn to love you. 

I bet you take beautiful pictures! 

I get it because I’ve been there before in my own way. I’m still trying to do things that make me happy and not everyone else. It’s hard, relearning how to do things. Because when you grew up putting everyone before yourself then you start to do it without thinking. It’s not the way to be an adult because you will get steamrolled by everyone. 

So what is it that you want to do? Tell me sweet anon. Not what anyone else wants you to do. You. Do you want to try college again when you’re ready? Do you want to paint your ceiling with stars? Skydiving?

:)

You won’t be far from me in Dayton, just a couple of hours. Messy situations are the worst and I’ve been in my fair share of them. I hope it works out. I hope you guys work out. 

We do things in times that we feel we need to do because at the time it’s what is best. That doesn’t mean if we go back to a person or revisit a situation that it was wrong to begin with, just bad timing. I know alllll about bad timing. 

Why did you guys pick dayton?

Believe me if you knew my story you’d feel better because it’s crazy also. And there are so many people in my life who think it’s dumb but you can’t help how you feel. And you know what…sometimes you have to try. Because if you don’t then you will forever wonder what if. 

Just be careful and remember what is a limit for you. Also remember an addict is more susceptible to relapse unless they want to get help to begin with.

I take it since you said dumb life choice that you’re moving out there/

I’ll go with you  because I can understand the feeling of wanting to save someone important. If you need to talk. Talk.

R: Who was your first kiss?

• Brendan F. Though I never like to admit it because he was/is a piece of shit. I was in six grade.

I: 5 turn ons

1. biting
2. dirty talk
3. anything involving my neck
4. grabbing my hips
5. kisses

O: Who are you crushing on right now?

• My ex.

T: What kind of underwear are you wearing?

•  I’m not
• 

like date? Um. one. I guess. since we’re doing the friends thing. But that’s complicated. 

Other than that no. But I don’t have that many friends I guess you can say. 

It’s an interesting question to ask though. 

I’m okay. I could be better. How are you anon?

Hmm well toes is  so let’s adjust.

Head

• Hair: What hair color looks best on you and what’s your natural color?

1. My natural color is a reddish brown but I think ginger red looks best

Shoulders

• Neck: Do you wear necklaces?

1. I have one I never take off given to me by someone very important

Knees

• Thighs: Has anyone ever called you fat or ugly?

1. Yes. Both.

Toes

• Toes: Do you like country music?

1. Some. I just don’t like bluegrass or gospel really